Mother's Day -No More "First's"

Last year, Mother's Day was the first special occasion that I was to celebrate without hubby around. I don't really remember much about it since he had just passed away 3 weeks prior and everything was and is a blur around that time. So now that I am hitting Mother's Day a 2nd time without him, it looks like there are no more special occasion "firsts".  Anticpating a special occasion is always tough when you are grieving. Hubby used to give me two cards..one from him and one from the kids that he wrote in kiddie handwriting as the kids were too small to write it themselved. JJ is about to turn 7 so he can write cards himself now. The other day JJ said to me, "Mom, I can't make you breakfast for Mother's Day because I don't know how". I told him he knows how to make a bowl of ceral so we'll see what, if anything he comes up with tomorrow. Tomorrow we are having dinner to celebrate Mother's Day with his extended family like we do every single year. It's just weird celebrating anything without him around. He used to buy lottery tickets for his grandmothers and put them in their cards. I really don't know what to get for his grandmothers so i bought some lottery tickets today that I will put in their cards so that my kids can give them to their great grandma's.