The Memories

4 year old RJ asked me today to tell him more stuff about what Daddy did with him. I am struggling, struggling to give RJ memories of his dad. He had such a short time with him that I want to preserve as many memories for him as I can. Yet all I can pull out are about 4 or 5 memories for the 2 of them. Why is that? It's like my brain has wiped them out. I am sad for RJ, that he won't remember his dad. Fortunately I have lots of photos and video footage. Part of me wants to bring out all the videos to try and find footage of him so RJ can remember him but part of me doesn't want to as I know it will be very painful to watch.